"Loving you is easy cause you’re beautiful" -MINNIE RIPERTON
These lyrics are so simple in a way. Is it really easy to instantly love something beautiful? Maybe… maybe so. I’m on a spiritual journey to love and accept myself. And it’s really hard because I am a very self-critical person. I judge myself so much and so harshly at times. And there are times when I just hate myself. To be honest, I don’t consider myself as beautiful in any way. Sometimes I compare myself (body, mind, spirit, soul, face, career, intelligence etc) to so many other people. And often times when I do this I am the one who comes out as the loser. However, I’m trying to change that now. And it’s going to be a long, hard journey to stop these habits and acquire new habits that are positive and healthy for my self. All in all, I am NOT at the point where I consider MYSELF as BEAUTIFUL. I always feel that I’m lacking. And when these lyrics popped in my head, I suddenly realized that it’s hard to learn to love yourself when you don’t even consider or see yourself as beautiful. I know that I’m not special or pretty, and it’s okay. What’s not okay is the fact that I don’t consider myself as beautiful … .just as I am.